My Story My Life My Thoughts

This is a rather old song… kept running thru my brains…..

我 怀 念 的

我 問 為 什 么 那 女 孩 傳 簡 訊 給 我

而 你 為 什 么 不 解 釋 低 著 頭 沉 默

我 該 相 信 你 很 愛 我 不 愿 意 敷 衍 我

還 是 明 白 你 已 不 想 挽 回 什 么

想 問 為 什 么 我 不 再 是 你 的 快 樂

可 是 為 什 么 卻 苦 笑 說 我 都 懂 了

自 尊 常 常 將 人 拖 著 把 愛 都 走 曲 折

假 裝 了 解 是 怕 真 相 太 赤 裸 裸

狼 狽 比 失 去 難 受

我 怀 念 的 是 無 話 不 說

我 怀 念 的 是 一 起 做 夢

我 怀 念 的 是 爭 吵 以 后 還 是 想

要 愛 你 的 沖 動

我 記 得 那 年 生 日 也 記 得 那 一 首 歌

記 得 那 片 星 空 最 緊 的 右 手 最 暖 的 胸 口

誰 記 得 誰 忘 了

想 問 為 什 么 我 不 再 是 你 的 快 樂

可 是 為 什 么 卻 苦 笑 說 我 都 懂 了

自 尊 常 常 將 人 拖 著 把 愛 都 走 曲 折

假 裝 了 解 是 怕 真 相 太 赤 裸 裸

狼 狽 比 失 去 難 受

我 怀 念 的 是 無 話 不 說

我 怀 念 的 是 一 起 做 夢

我 怀 念 的 是 爭 吵 以 后 還 是 想

要 愛 你 的 沖 動

我 記 得 那 年 生 日 也 記 得 那 一 首 歌

記 得 那 片 星 空 最 緊 的 右 手 最

暖 的 胸 口

誰 忘 了

我 怀 念 的 是 無 言 感 動

我 怀 念 的 是 絕 對 炙 熱

我 怀 念 的 是 你 很 激 動 求 我 原

諒 抱 的 我 都 痛

我 記 得 你 在 背 后 也 記 得 我 顫 抖 著

記 得 感 覺 洶 涌 最 美 的 煙 火 最 長 的 相 擁

誰 愛 的 太 自 由 誰 過 頭 太 遠 了

誰 要 走 我 的 心 誰 忘 了 那 就 是 承 諾

誰 自 顧 自 地 走 誰 忘 了 看 著 我

誰 讓 愛 變 沉 重 誰 忘 了 要 給 你 溫 柔

(我 怀 念 的) 我 還 有 想 要 愛 你 的沖 動

我 記 得 那 年 生 日 也 記 得 那 一 首 歌

記 得 那 片 星 空 最 緊 的 右 手 最 暖 的 胸 口

我 放 手 我 讓 座 假 洒 脫

誰 懂 我 多 么 不 舍 得

太 愛 了 所 以 我 沒 有 哭 沒 有 說

Wedding after wedding… tired …. my dearest brother finally got married. it was seperated into 2 days (if not i wld have been dead) so tiring…..

My close fren, christine, got married yesterday. It was simple just a gathering of friends… caught up with my bitches - lynn and sabby …. its been a long while since we actually sat down for drinks ( but mummy lynn cannot drink hahaha). We started our cam whoring again… will upload the pictures…..

dun know what to say already….

Love has always been a wonderful thing happening everyone. But there comes to a point where in some relationship there is  a full stop(.), some might be a (,) or simply to be cont’d (……..) but when i do not know.

In any relationship, i guess the most impt thing is about balancing each others life and feeling the sense of comfort. Its hard….. frens around me seems to be facing the “break up” season….. in my strongest opinion, its very important to have a closure regardless what reason…..

People part cos they know each other too well that they know that they are not able to stay togther.

People part due  to not time for each other, People part cos they think what they are doing is best for their partners yet lingering thoughts and love still exist.

Its not easy to heal when a relationship fails however the best that one is able to do is to face the emotions in them and be honest about it. I think many at times that females tend to be bravier then the males these days.

Sometimes, spending time together in quantity doesnt mean anything. its the quality time that counts…. how many of you are really comfortable with your partner doing nothing but spacing out….. that is very impt…. there is something along the line of ….. hmmmmm something that i seem to enjoy doing in past years….. enjoying their presence

~~ Embrace and Face the emotions and fears ~~

Love has always been said to be unconditional…. but how many of us can really do that? How many of us restrain ourselves from giving it all to our loves in order not to get hurt? I only can see that unconditional love truly comes from the mother to a child - 2 good examples are my dearest pals - lynn and swee… they would be more then willingly to give up anything for the sake of their children….. are we able to do that for our partners? If yes, to what extend?

Was sharing this with pris, my belive is that a relationship is never a bed of roses. It takes more pain then sweet nothings. If a relationship is a bed of roses then when something bad strikes, how does one take it? Is it by being by one side day and night means that they are almost like 2 into 1? At the end of the day, we are individuals, when 2 person get together its only means that they are willing to share a life together and not losing their own personality or worst their own space? Does communicating every day means anything? how does communication break down? puzzles the hell out of me… where is the balance to everything……

I guess somehow the connection between my frens, we are able to space out and yet feel comfortable…… i use to that alot with swee.. where we would enjoy our alcohol and start spacing out.. with lynn we will never be able to stop talking once we meet hahaha…  as i grow older i truly feel that true frens are hard to come by.. its hard to find frens that are able to sit across or beside you and let you ponder your thoughts….. but once found its so hard to let them go…. miss u gals much

I guess the best that happen to me was having frens who could take me as who i was, my language, my attitude, my bitchess, my unreasonableness (if there is such a word)….

Its been like ages since i have been blogging… missing my friends alot… haven been seeing my preggy ‘wife’ lynn… miss the bitching session with them (sab, kris)… caught up with pris most of the time…. awwww i miss my martini sessions with my big cat and poodlee………….. my ex boss still owes me my LYCHEE MARTINIS….

Life has been tough eversince i have stepped into the new company…. trying to learn the ropes…. shall tell you ppl more in person…..

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One song to ponder ~~ still trying to understand . Perhaps Perhaps Perhaps

你的姿态 你的青睐

我存在在你的存在

你以为爱就是被爱

你挥霍了我的崇拜
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我活了　我爱了　我都不管了
心爱到疯了恨到算了就好了
可能的　可以的　真的可惜了
幸福好不容易怎麼你却不敢了呢

我还以为我们能　不同於别人
我还以为不可能的　不会不可能

风筝有风 海豚有海
我存在在我的存在
所以明白　所以离开

所以不再为爱而爱
自己存在　在你之外

Do you remember the first tingle that went thru your body on the person’s slightest touch?

Do you remember how you look forward to every moment that was spend - at that time one min was just enough.

A glimpse of that person makes one at ease?

Do you think of the person every moment?

Do you wonder why the person is not here?

Do you yearn the warmth from the person?

Do you remember the time when you do not even look at the person in the eyes?

~~~~ the sweetness of love, the sweetness of infatuation~~~~

Am reborn again~~~~

it’s enough, no more feeling sorry. No more sad feeling.

I walked out with a brave heart leaving behind the ugly foot prints.

I leave with intergrity and faith. I have not let anyone down especially myself.

YOu may smear my name with dirt, hurt, and blames. but does it make u feel better?

When you see the next time, I will always be a better person then before.

U are the guys that made me stronger then before hence i thank you for that. For every negative, i will want to find the tiny bit of positive.

I would not want to dewell in the past. Yes, it hurts to see that human whom i thought has trusted me turned that back or i have trusted wrongly. I will learn. Thank you for the lesson.

There is only one choice - Intergrity or survival.

I chose Intergrity.

A nice song to share. Love the meaning of it… sometimes in life.

我爱着谁 爱到我有点醉 告诉我你是谁 能够把我让我变不对 你不会累 但我却爱你爱得好累 从没有为了谁 不顾安危 付出一切 站在这平衡点 我还是觉得有点危险 或许是看不见 只能够靠感觉 他不会是个好男人 也不会是个好情人 你对我说 我们只是擦肩而过 好的男人有那么多 少了他的日子也能过 我不会再让你寂寞 也不会让你更难过 你听我说要好好学着去生活 就算未来有多少错 至少还有我的问候 我的温柔陪你度过 你听我说 你不要这么做 你不要看着我 说你已经知道怎么做 你很难受 我愿意陪你一起承受 只要你不怕痛 再多坎坷我都陪你走 站在这平衡点 我还是觉得有点危险 或许是看不见 只能够靠感觉 他不会是个好男人 也不会是个好情人 你对我说 我们只是擦肩而过 好的男人有那么多 少了他的日子也能过 我不会再让你寂寞 也不会让你更难过 你听我说要好好学着去生活 就算未来有多少错 至少还有我的问候 我的温柔陪你度过 他不会是个好男人 也不会是个好情人 你对我说我们只是擦肩而过 好的男人有那么多 少了他的日子也能过 我不会再让你寂寞 也不会让你更难过 你听我说要好好学着去生活 就算未来有多少错 至少还有我的问候 我的温柔陪你度过 就算未来有多少错 至少还有我的问候 我的温柔陪你度过

Its hard. It was never easy.

Time is ticking, looking forward but yet not. Afraid of human reaction. Wanting to take cover.

It is rather sad or disheartening to see human true colours or how they turn their back.

A sincere heart I have never once evil thoughts but who really knows.

I thought i knew, but i did not. I thought is was true but it was disillusioned.

A cold heart wanting and seeking warmth. All I need is just little bit  not asking just a bit. A tiny bit